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I have thought about this topic so many times. Why I am behaving totally different and strange sometimes!!!!

I consider myself to be a jovial, easy going, fun loving person. But is that the truth? I really don't know the answer

Sometimes, some days I act really weird, strange. What's making me to act like that?

One day, I will be totally excited and feel that this is what I am. And the other day, I will be totally down, fed up and feel irritated to the core.

And when I am not in a good mood, I am really down and stubborn. I really go out of control, and end up crying.

Crying has always been a sense of relief for me to come out of stress. I really don't know why I get to that level of frustration. But I have noticed that I get easily stressed out these days.

I have at least learnt to manage during happy times, but still have not figured out a way to handle it during the stressful times.

Standing in front of the mirror, almost every day, I ask myself "Neeyaa Naan", Naanaa appadi ellam pesinen"… This isn't you Thillai… You used to be really good and liked by everyone around me"… like this myself explanations, debates continue forever. The good and bad thoughts of me keep juggling in my mind.

I want to have a balanced life, both good and bad, allowing me to realize, enjoy, accept, and cherish everything.

I realize that all these boils down to the question of "Who Am I". One Day I will get my answer definitely and I am eagerly waiting for that!!!!